Transformation

Jesus, transform me!
Show me what I am in you.
Cause my mind and heart to align with you.
Let my conforming be to you not the world.

Show me what it is to live in your Kingdom.
Help me see Your Reality not my reality.
Let my life reflect your values.
Let my worship be 24/7,  not an hour on Sundays.

Help me live in each moment.
Not the last one or the nest one.
And in that moment live completely in you.
Jesus, transform me.

Jealousy and envy

O Lord, why do jealousy and envy rage against me so.
These twins of destruction pierce my soul.
They whisper to my heart.
"Others are successful, when will you!"
"Others are promoted, why aren't you!"
"Others have opportunity, why don't you!"

O Lord, rebuke these interlopers.
Send you Spirit to seal me in your presence.
I gladly place my body, mind, and spirit in your keeping.
You create my paths.
You direct my steps.

Lord, I no longer accept their companionship.
Forgive me for allowing them access to my heart.
I will stand against them.
May your Spirit strengthen my resolve.
I will bless your name.

The Land of Famine

O Lord, I am living in the land of famine.
I didn't see the signs?
I ignored the signs?
I refused to see the signs?
O Lord, I have no foresight
and my hindsight has grown fuzzy.

I am at your mercy.
You alone know the motivations of my heart.
But, I have never refused to go where you have directed.
I have been as generous as I know how to be.
When I have seen a person in need I have helped them to the best of my ability.
I have carried some even after I should have let them go.
I have given of my time and resources to invest in your kingdom.

You do not refuse anyone forgiveness.
Those who repent stand inside you arms of protection and mercy.
You love to provide for your children.
O Lord, forgive my selfish heart, I repent of my trusting in self,
I am your child, bless me Father or I will die in this land of famine.

You are faithful, and I will bless your name.
You are faithful, and I will count your blessings.
You are faithful, I will accept your crushing and your discipline.
You are faithful, do not hide your face from me.
You are faithful, I will put my hope in you.
You are faithful, I will wait for the rain and the manna of your blessing.

Depressed But Not Defeated

O Lord, look on me with pity,
The habits of my mind have destroyed me,
My heart and mind have conspired,
The destruction of my soul is their delight.

But you are greater than my mind,
You created my heart.
O Lord, rescue me from myself.
Let me stand in the light of your love.

Defeat the darkness of depression.
Make me whole by your presence.
Give me strength to fight.
Give me strength to stand still.

Uphold me with your righteousness.
Overwhelm me with your joy.
Rescue me with your peace.
And I will continually praise your name.