Waiting

Jesus, it is difficult to wait.
I'm not built for waiting.
Spontaneous, impetuous best describe me.
Teach me to wait.

I would sit at your feet.
I would wait in your presence.
I would listen for your words.
Help me know your voice.

Help me recognize your whisper.
May I joy in your laughter.
May I be silent in your discipline.
May I grasp your words of life.

Your words are strength for the day.
Your touch is courage for the moment.
Your presence is protection from the circumstance.
Your silence is the power of friendship.

Standing in the Flood

O Lord, some days getting to you
is like walking through a monsoon flood.
I try with all my might, but cant get any closer.
All that is around me pushes back and interferes.

Lord, look on me; Father, I cry out to you.
Help your faltering child.
Your presence is the only safe place,
Your presence is my only protection.

Fill me with your strength to stand against the flood.
Fill me with your Spirit so our connection is strong.
Fill me with your sight to see beyond the present onslaught.
Fill me with joy so i may love life.

Jealousy and envy

O Lord, why do jealousy and envy rage against me so.
These twins of destruction pierce my soul.
They whisper to my heart.
"Others are successful, when will you!"
"Others are promoted, why aren't you!"
"Others have opportunity, why don't you!"

O Lord, rebuke these interlopers.
Send you Spirit to seal me in your presence.
I gladly place my body, mind, and spirit in your keeping.
You create my paths.
You direct my steps.

Lord, I no longer accept their companionship.
Forgive me for allowing them access to my heart.
I will stand against them.
May your Spirit strengthen my resolve.
I will bless your name.